lost and weird.

i saw this on postsecret and it basically summed up how i've felt this week, and how i imagine i'll be feeling for a while until i get into a new routine.
i went out with some good friends last night and had more fun than i've had in a while. we just sat and talked and laughed all night and i forgot about feeling sad and lonely. it was a much needed night of comfort and drinks and good conversation.
but the truth is, i'm having a hard time making sense of myself without thomas.

missing.

yesterday, this boy left for the missionary training center. i won't see him for 2 years. i've known him about that long and haven't spent more than a week or so without him since then.
it's really great that he's doing this, i'm totally happy for him, and i know that it's an important time for both of us.
but right now, it just. really. sucks.